So i have one more paper to write and one final left before this semester ends. i feel like procrastinating and i understand this is not my smartest choice. I’ve been thinking lately and this is probably the worst time for me to think because i have so much stuff to get done but so it is.
Lately I’ve been feeling a sense of discontent. I am very thankful for the life that I have been able to live. I have been able to see so many awesome things, and have had an awesome journey in just 22 yrs. I have met some amazing people and have also been blessed with an amazing family and the best friends a person could ask for. So I by no means want to sound like I am pitying myself, I am so thankful for the life that I have had so far.
This year I decided to stay home and finish up my undergrad by commuting. I loved living on campus but it cost me a lot of money , and I was getting pretty involved in my church back home so I decided home would be a better environment for me to be in. And it has been, I do love being home. But it’s not where I want to stay. And I think that is normal.
Also, it is my last year of college. I have been in school for five years, and it is not really that exciting any more. I intend to finish strong, and do the best I can but I also really want to finish.
I know that it is so important to be thankful for what is happening in my life, right here and right now. And I am , I really am. I am trying my best to serve God fully and know that where I am right now, is where God has me for a reason. And I have seen God do some amazing things, right here and right now. But I also can’t wait for the future. I think this may be because I am graduating soon, and I don’t really know what tomorrow brings.
I recognize that I am young and I have a lot to learn. This is just how I sometimes feel. Thanks for reading. Hopefully it wasn’t too whiny.
In the hopes of reaching the moon men fail to see the flowers that blossom at their feet.” – Albert Schweitzer
